I’m exhausted.  Work has been kicking my butt lately.  I’m on call and there is a ton of mandatory overtime that comes with that roll.  I don’t mind it really, it’s just very tiring.  I feel like recovery has been on the back burner these last few weeks.  I am still going to a couple of meetings and I’m trying to do my prayers and reading, but it’s no where near where I used to be.  I know that the obsession has been lifted and I know that I am in a good place, but I have to stay diligent.  I cannot rely on yesterday’s recovery I have to keep working at this.  Complacency is not healthy for me.  I suppose that even realizing this is a step in the right direction.  I doubt that I would have realized this prior even last year.  It’s only through the constant work in my recovery that I learning this stuff about myself.  I know for a fact that I would have hid out in the basement after some of the days I’ve had this week.  Small steps, always forward and in a positive direction…..I’ll take that.

Feeling blessed.

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