I grew up in the Ottawa Valley in Petawawa, ON. It is a beautiful area of this province and I have a lot of fond memories of the place. When I was in early recovery I was asked to think about the “Serenity” and what it meant to me. We had to draw a picture to represent how we felt about the word and where or what would allow us to enter a state of serenity. For me one of the most serene places has always been down by the Ottawa or Petawawa rivers. I used to love the sensation of the water flowing over me as I lay in the rapids. I have never found anything quite as good at drowning out the squirrels in my head. For a few moments I am at peace and calm. I miss those rapids.